Paen said to Jeshibian, “Your deeper self is always conspiring to rattle your cage” and to destroy that which lies between “you” and it, all your ideas of who you think you are.”
Buddy, I get it. It seems on one hand we must choose, but then on the other, we never have any idea how that choice is only to free us of our illusions.

And that’s why I still love you.

Man… what a mess, eh?

Dressed down, up, then down again,

Backward and forward…

It cuts you up and spits you out.